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So I realised that while there are Anti-X Action flags for loads of things, there was no anti-transphobia action one. So I made one. :)
Don't sanitise me when I'm dead.
Don't dress me in a suit, fill your heads
with notions of perfection I couldn't fulfil
in life, and never can in death.
Don't erase the parts of me that hurt you -
don't delete my dubious history.
Rip out the rings from my pin-cushion face
coat my tattoos in makeup to hide
from the world things which made me look unique
but don't hide from the world my true warts
my faults and foibles, don't
pretend I was a saint.

Don't dress me up as special when I'm gone.
Don't stand at an altar spreading lies
about what a good person I was
in life, when you know that's not the truth.
Don't forget the parts of me that made me human
made me imperfect, that you hated, that
made you want to kill me until I was already dead.
Remember the parts of me that made you cringe
or shake with anger. Remember my personhood,
remember my humanity and never
forget the sinner that I was.
He whispered down a cold telephone line
voice crackling with crisp anger
dripping threats that chilled my soul
"Why did you tell him I raped you?"
Heart beating to an out-of-time drum
hairs standing up, reaching away from me
as I wanted to get away from myself
but mostly from his voice on the line.
No words. No murmur. Barely breath, even
the world stood still and I panicked
guilt and shame rising in my throat like bile
stinging my unmoving tongue. I must
have made a noise, some involuntary sound
a death-rattle from my heaving stomach.
"Why?" he repeated, and I could barely think,
let alone speak the words. Because you did.
Because you did. Because you did.
I gathered my trembling wits and breathed out
slowly, so that he would hear that I was there.
I put down the phone, and he disappeared.
I like the way the
bitterness of my coffee
makes your mouth sweeter.
A fox skitters down the street on claws
sharpened on kerb-stones and dumping-grounds
It glances up at this two-legged stranger
as it passes, speeding up to escape perceived danger.

A man sleeps in a doorway; it is a warm night
so his possessions bundled make a resting-place
for his weary head, and he sleeps uncovered.
The fox pays him no mind, he is part of the furniture.

A drunken group sashays along the pavement, the silk-garbed
crowd parting for the casual stroller in denim and boots.
Giggling, they speak in high pitches of nothing at all.
The fox gives wide berth, fearing the noise.

Two men, loud, walking along the middle of the road
white lines providing guidance, kicking food containers
like so many footballs. The fox senses real danger,
and like the two-legs, is on full alert.

The men pass, the women long-gone, the man sleeps.
The traffic lights change from red to green, but no cars
are out at this time. Distantly, a siren wails.
The road is quiet but for the skittering of the fox.


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"But I don't want to go among mad people," Alice remarked.
"Oh, you can't help that," said the Cat: "we're all mad here. I'm mad. You're mad."
"How do you know I'm mad?" said Alice.
"You must be," said the Cat, "or you wouldn't have come here."

I'm Quinn Capes-Ivy. I'm your average twentysomething queer and transgender parent, radical feminist, mentalist, cripple, emotionally unstable, arrogant, self-absorbed, narcissist. I have one spouse, two ex-fiancés and a kid not fathered by any of them. I have diagnoses coming out of my ears. Life is a constant battle between me and my hair. One day I'll be rich and famous, but I don't know what for yet. I drink altogether too much tea and am addicted to my electronic cigarette. I love body modification of all kinds. If I could be an animal, I'd be a rat. I have the world's most awesome and inspiring family and friends. I like to sleep in of a morning. Trying to be the best damn person I can be.


Fibromyalgia International Awareness Day

Journal Entry: Mon May 12, 2014, 8:18 AM

Today is Fibromyalgia International Awareness Day. For those who don't know, I suffer with fibromyalgia, and it is a very real and debilitating illness. This post is an informational one - if there's anything you've ever wanted to know abou
t fibromyalgia, you can ask me here - no matter how personal - and I will attempt to answer you, either here or in a private message. I want to raise awareness of this condition which is so maligned by media and dismissed by the medical profession.

Head over to the Fibromyalgia Association UK where you can find out more and even donate to the charity if you want to.

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If I published a hold-it-in-your-hands book of poetry, would you buy it? 

3 deviants said Only if it contained some new material.
2 deviants said Yes, definitely.
1 deviant said Only if it contained all new material.
No deviants said Not under any circumstances.



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You're welcome! :)
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quinnypin Featured By Owner Nov 18, 2013  Student Writer
Wow, thanks! What brought that on? :love:
Blaise-Katzchen Featured By Owner Nov 18, 2013  Student General Artist
Your very welcome :D

Haha. Well, I made a post looking for good/interesting poets and i was referred to your page. Naturally, i started reading some of your poetry and WOW!They blew my mind! :O

Idk, you just seem like an extremely interesting person (in a good way) and you are one seriously fucking talented writer! I'm starting to make a list of my favourite writers/poets and you are the first (well second, but first who isn't a friend of mine =P) to go on that list. 

Thank you for sharing such amazing work on here! I'll definitely be reading any new work you upload :)

Have you ever considered publishing your work if you haven't already? 
quinnypin Featured By Owner Nov 30, 2013  Student Writer
What an intensely flattering and cheering comment! I would love to publish, but I... I guess I don't have the confidence in my ability to do so that you seem to have! ;)
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